Stintan's blog! - Fall 2024

11/08/24 - Gintoki's birthday, Halloween, and good old fashioned "Toshi talk"

I can't believe it has been two months since my last update on the official gyarutobii.neocities stintan blog. my greatest aplogies. If you follow me, your'e likely aware of the events that have occured in the last month, and to say the least, they're pretty big. First was the obvious- Gintoki's birthday was a month ago. I celebrated by making my own Gintoki artwork and watching Gintama with my friends. It was a great excuse to get together and appreciate the man I love with all my heart. >///< I love Gintoki so much, I just had to celebrate with lots of sweets that I know he would want >.<

for the occasion I also got some new Gintoki merchandise!! I love the pillow so much. I get to hug him and snuggle with him now!! I also ordered a big tapestry for my dorm wall (it's a picture of Gintoki- shirtless! lol. He's so hot. I have been agressively checking my mail waiting for it)

I also dressed up for Halloween as Sacchan again! She's my favorite to cosplay. This has been by first Halloween away from home, and it wasn't all that bad. I went out with my college roommate and we walked through the local cemetary, explored the oldest building on campus, and went to a haunted house. The haunted house was really scary, but awesome, it looked like everyone working on it had a lot of fun doing it. It was also my first time going to a cemetary on Halloween. It might sound weird, but I kinda like to go to them. They feel like peaceful bresting places to me. I like to go visit the graves of people I don't know because I imagine a lot of the older graves must not get too many visitors anymore, and I think that they deserve to get a little attention every once in a while. I like to see who is buried together, if they're with family members, etc, I think it's nice to visit graves, even if the people are strangers.

last thing I wanted to mention was the Gintama arc I just watched- I love the thorny arc so much... Toshi loves his family and his friends... I think that Toshi and his brother really did deeply care for eachother even if Toshi worried about scaring or hurting him. I like how Toshi slowly starts to open up about himself as the story goes on, especially when he becomes more nopen to being friends with Gintoki, it shows that his self confidence is improving and that he is starting to see himself as more human... It warms my heart. My lovely toshi!! I love how he wrote letters to his brother, even if he couldn't read them, and even when he was dead. Toshi is a good man. He might not think so, but I *KNOW* so. _< I can kinda relate to him in some ways- I didn't grow up in a low income family in teh slightest, but I do feel like I got started in the art industry in a less that conventional way- going to an "everyone is accepted here" type of public school rather than a prestigious art school feels like a parallel to Toshi's life for me, which is one of the reasons I feel for him a lot. Just as Kondo said, "we're all failiures and outsiders here." Thanks to my friends for making me not feel alone in my journey. It's helped me become confident in my skills. The easy way out just isn't as rewarding. I'm not giving up any time soon. and PS: thank you Toshi, for motivating me to keep going.

09/23/24 - my long awaited return...

hello everyone! >_< apologies for my long hiatus... I was a bit busy with school... I am in university now. some aspects I enjoy, and some I don't. Other than that I do not have much to talk about. I have been keeping up with wearing gyaru coords almost every single day, and I am excited for the incoming winter because I love winter himekaji!! I wore my Liz Liza sweater yesterday, I love it so much and it is my favorite clothing item I own. I am hoping that I can wear it again soon.

this is my dorm room!! I have a roommate and I love her. I like my room too. Everything is cute and pink and Gintama... I feel very happy and comfortable in my room. Sadly I have not had any time to read manga and play games so unfortunatley no updates on that... I am much too busy with school. classes are very early so I can not stay up late. I am an art major by the way! I think some people at college are very kind and understanding, while others are very rude. But that just life I guess. Occasionally I compare myself to other people at college, but I have to remind myself that most people here (including half of my friends) are much older than me. Sometimes I hear my older friends talk about their life and I think 'wow, I wish I was that experienced...' which is kind of silly of me since she's nearly ten years older than me XD like of course she's going to be more experienced! I also feel embarassed about my relatively safe and moderate lifestyle... I feel like many people here live very differently than me, even the so-called "nerds." (things really arent the way they used to be. I feel like EVERYONE goes to parties and drinks and smokes-not just the "popular" people") I don't really see anything wrong with living like this, since it's your choice to do what you want with your life, but I just feel left out sometimes :') (and nervous too!! please stay safe guys!!!) It sometimes makes me feel like a poser gyaru too. But that's another topic for another day. I don't think that that type of behavior is associated with hime/amekaji gals as much so hopefully I am safe... for now... I wouldn't say I feel completely left out though. I have met people who like Gintama, Jfashion, kpop, are yumejin, etc... I don't think I'm that alone. To my small circle of college friends, thank you. You are such kind people. I enjoy living on my own because it feels like I can do whatever I want... I am living my best shojo girl life!

I like to walk around on and off campus looking for fun things to do... I bring my Gintama plushies out with me, sit alone and draw and work, buy things at the store on campus, walk around in the rain with my umbrella etc etc... It is fun. I am alone but not lonley, although I do really miss my family and my dog :,) pictures above are just things I found on campus. The store was selling kewpie mayonaise, and me being me decided to buy it and share with my roommate- I put him on fries with mayo and she hasn't gone back since XD I didn't expect it to look so cartoony just like in Gintama lol. My Toshi loves it. >_< the other pic is some cool Japanese history books I found in the library... interesting stuff... I managed to find Takasugi mentioned in one of these but I can't remember which one it was... TwT

last picture is from my first date with Gintoki in my new home :D The little shops and diners here are very cute. I feel like I have everything I need here even though it's a small town. the service here felt slow, but I think it's just different than my home state lol. People are just more patient here... There is also much less traffic here! it is much more rural than my hometown so that is probably why... you can find the rest of the pictures with gintoki on my instagram!! I brought him to do all his favorite things!! (eat sweets, gambling, and spend time with lovely girlfriend ^_^ !! bye bye!! thank you for your patience with updates!!